Two months today

It’s hard to fathom that Elias has been dead two months now. He should have been at home, playing trains and fighting with Noah over whether they should watch Chuggington or Mickey Mouse Clubhouse.

It’s hard to even know what to say here. What I do know is that the support and outreach that we have received from so many people has made everything a little more bearable.

I’m sorry that I cannot write more… I know I have not written much lately. Things have just been so intense that I haven’t been able to even think about writing.

We are moving the bulk of our belongings tomorrow. We have to get out of Whitestown. I cannot bear to lose another child and I very much fear that, if we continue to live there, it may happen. After all, as many already know, Elias was the third child to die in our neighborhood since last October/November. My fear is that it is just a matter of time.

I miss you so much, little buddy. 

3 thoughts on “Two months today”

  1. Amanda, your family is in my prayers and heart every day. I am so saddened by the loss of your beautiful son and pray that your pain will lessen as the days go by. Sweet Mother, your children are blessed to have you. We've never met but your struggle stays with me. Sending you love and prayers always. Sincerely, Leslie Hester

  2. I can not imagine… Honestly, after you wrote that other children in that neighborhood had died also it broke my heart and I am happy you are able to move out of there. Do you know what happened to the other children?All the best to you and lots of love for you all.

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