Frequently my anxiety level just really peaks and I’m left feeling panicky and as though I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m frequently left with a feeling of dread as though something will go wrong, or as though I’ve done something horribly wrong. I really hate those feelings but I don’t really know what to do about them.
Yes, I’ve felt them before, when I had PTSD from both my car wreck and after Elias’ birth. I am quite certain that Elias’ death triggered the PTSD again. I just don’t know what to do about it.
I’m medicated and have been for a couple of months now. It just doesn’t seem to be helping that panicky feeling of dread. My blood pressure is elevated – I’m now medicated for that, too! I just wish life could go back to normal but I realize that can never be. All that we can strive for is the “new normal” that I’ve been hearing so much about.