Today, you would have been 7.
Words cannot convey just how much you are missed on this and all other days. You were taken from us far too soon for no real reason. That just makes it all the harder.
You should have been heading to school with Noah each day, pestering Ceili Fey, going to the library to play Bingo, doing so many things…. So many things you’ll never get to do. Henry still keeps the nickname you gave him. I think he’ll always consider himself Dinky. You’d have loved Calvin, you did like babies. Unfortunately, Henry was too young to remember you but we tell them both about you.
Life goes on but it’s just not fair that it goes on without you.
You’re two today, Calvin. In some ways it seems to have gone by so fast.
We love you, little buddy.
It’s very hard to believe that today you are 12.
You’ve borne witness to a lot, both life and death. That’s a lot for anyone.
Each day you have grown more beautiful, inside and out.
You’re smart, funny, and I’m proud to call you my child.
Happy happy birthday, Ceili Fey. I love you.
We spent Henry’s fourth birthday at Jon’s parents’. He had cake and presents.
He doesn’t care much for crowds and people he doesn’t know. Sadly, this includes most of his family. So we just stopped doing a big party. He seems to enjoy it more.
He had a great time.
To Noah, on your fifth birthday. Yes, I know this is a bit late – your birthday was the 21st – but things have kept me super busy and I’ve not posted much.
It’s hard to believe that you’re going to be starting kindergarten later this year. This is at such an exciting moment, yet is also colored with some wistfulness. You were supposed to have a bigger brother – and best friend – who was going to ride the bus with you and help you to adjust to the new things at school… I’m sorry that was not to be.
Even though you’ll have to go it alone, I’m very confident that you can do it. You’re doing wonderfully in pre-k and I just know you’ll continue to do wonderfully once you start kindergarten. You’ve made some good friends already who will be going to school with you – perhaps you’ll even be on the bus with one of them.
You’ve been through a lot in your life, little buddy. I would like to be able to tell you that nothing bad will happen in your life ever again, but things don’t work like that. All we can do is take what we’re given, do the best we can, and hope for the best. In your case, I’m certain you’ll do great!
Happy fifth birthday, little guy.