All this talk about babies – okay, okay, I’ve been the one doing the talking – has got me thinking. Noah’s birth was so much more peaceful and calm than Elias’.
- I rotated through the three doctors in the practice
- Appointments were quick, I spent more time with the nurse than the OB
- I was told that I was in the minority for wanting to have a VBAC
- I never felt as though I was taken seriously
- I did not feel cared about, as though I was just a number
- I felt like the doctors thought they knew my body better than I did
- I really did not like the exams
- The OBs freaked out when I went past the “due date”
- Appointments were longer and spent with the midwife
- I felt listened to and believed
- I felt cared about
- The vaginal exams were few and far between
- It was made clear to me that I was not in the minority for wanting a VBAC, my choice was actually encouraged
- No one freaked out when I went past the “due date,” we discussed things and they didn’t start to worry unless we approached 42 weeks
- Went to hospital waaay too early – kind of got bullied into that
- Labor was controlled and augmented with Pitocin that was not allowed to be turned off due to threat from the doctor that she would section me if it wasn’t turned back on
- Went about my day, ate, drank, lived as normal
- I waited to go to hospital until I was feeling the need to push
- Mostly calm environment – once we got in the room
- I was on my back with my legs being held up by my husband and a nurse
- I felt very humiliated and embarrassed
- The doctor told me to stop making noises when I was grunting as I tried to push
- After I tore, Jon was shooed away from me while I was being sutured
- The doctor sutured me up so tight that I had pain and tightness for months afterward
- Elias was put on my chest momentarily before being whisked away
- I laid on my side to push him out with Jon standing beside me
- Noah was immediately put to my chest to feed where he stayed for some time
- I was asked if it was okay to take him and weigh him, etc.
I attribute the difference between the two births to a number of things: The second time around I went to Nurse Midwives of Indianapolis where the Certified Nurse Midwives (CNMs) have views on birth that closely match my own, i.e. if it ain’t broke….
Also, we went to Methodist where the nurses are much more accustomed to seeing natural birth, unlike when we were at Clarian North. Clarian North would be later described to me as “perfect” for those moms who don’t want to mess their makeup.
I also read a lot. I re-read a lot of the books that I had read – or skimmed – before. I especially enjoyed reading Ina May Gaskin’s Guide to Childbirth and Penny Simkin’s The Birth Partner. I do firmly believe that both books played a large part in my having the natural birth I wanted.
If I do it again, I would like to consider a home birth. I definitely would want a water birth, regardless of where it would take place. But, of course, that all depends on whether or not we have another one. Now, I realize that realistically we don’t have space in our house for another person. I do get that. I have hopes – we both do – that we will be able to find some land within a few years and literally make a home for ourselves.